Life

i'm nothing special I'm a common teenager with the common teenager thought I go to school just like every other kid in America younger than 18. I've seeing how high school can chew up and spit someone out, it could break you before you've even lived. I can't talk I've never been bullied a day in my life and I thank God for that every day, if there even is one, high school made me doubt that as well. i've never seen someone hurt as much as someone who gets bullied, it tears them apart inside and make some doubt everything that they thought was real it breaks the child in them and ruins the possibility of them living. it's such a messed up world that we live in and I don't think anyone on earth gets how bad it is. I'm not gonna lie I've hurt someone's feelings and I'm 100% not proud of it I hate myself every day because of things I've said to someone with things I've done to someone. you really just don't think about it when you say stuff but I kind of do I think about it when I get home and when I'm alone and when I have to think about people that I've hurt and usually it's the people that have done nothing wrong to me. i've never heard someone enough for them to cry in front of me I've never heard someone enough for them to kill their self. I would never say anything mean to someone I didn't know because were kids and we say things we don't mean when we say sarcastic things to her best friends because we think it's alright and that they won't mind because their friends and they all say the same things back to you but it's not right and it never was. popularity is another reason people hate their self they think that they have to be like them like if they're not them than life isn't worth living. i'm definitely not popular I am avoid people so much I feel like one of my biggest fears is people maybe I'm shy or maybe I just always in a bad mood. I say I hate people 1 million times a day but I never thought I'd come to the point where it was actually true humanity discuss me with every fiber of my being I hate the feeling of rape murder killings disaster dying all the side effects of life. I think that people who kill theirselves want something better they need something better so they do the only thing they know how to do a MoveOn they don't move on physically they move on spiritually and it's not right life is worth living for everybody but no one gets that. people all around the world have different problems and we're always going to fight in the world is going to get worse. i'd rather die than live in a world where everyone hates each other and where everyone disrespect each other all the time and that's what I live in and I hate it but I don't plan on killing myself because of the little things like my best friend she was bullied all her life and never really got over it. now she's confident and she does everything without thinking about it twice, she's brave and fearless and doesn't Care what anyone things, she's compeletely perfect, she's the real definition of perfect.